late night moan...model making...

 ok so what is it with model making, why does it take so long! I have literally been continuing with this model since after tea, so say about 7, it is now 10 to 1 and it feels like I have accomplished nothing all night! All it is is cutting out bits of mounting board and sticking them down, but oh no, the sizes aren't right, the walls need to be the correct widths, the windows need cut out and pieces need cut to connect the two walls where the spaces for windows and doors are....it could be made slightly faster if I were to do things the easy way, but in case you hasn't realised already, doing things the simple way is not my nature! So I shall continue and endeavour to get this done, perhaps even sleep tonight, who knows! I will say one thing though, I will be proud of myself when this gets done, because I know how much hard work has gone into it, a lot of thinking and planning and patience. And even if it does show that it has taken many late nights to complete, it'll still be worth it, I hope...! I should get back, my model awaits...

So far (sorta) so good...depending on how it does turn out, I'll post final pictures later!

Having a plan vs just going with it

I plan everything. I over think, I over stress, I over organise and I over plan.
But that's just who I am. Some think there is something wrong with this, where is the spontaneity? Well, to be honest, I'm one of those people, (also the kind of person that talks to themselves!) 
The truth of the matter is, surprises worry me, I am a huge worrier, I get it from my mum and I don't think growing up babysitting 4 younger brothers and sisters helped matters. I also tend to go off on tangents a bit as well so my apologies for that. It isn't that I don't enjoy living life and being random and doing     un-planned things, but I prefer knowing, this is ridiculous I hear you say, I can't possibly 'know' what is going to happen, I know this, but it doesn't stop me worrying about it. 


So in terms of why I plan, I think I covered that, I don't like surprises or things going wrong. It's not like I wake up every day and write the itinerary for the day, but if I have a lot on my mind, I'll write it down, a 'to-do list' a 'pro's and con's' list, a 'plan of action', it helps to actually see what the options are. In my opinion that is.


I know many people don't agree. In fact a few of my closest friends can just do things as they need done, or make a decision without figuring it all out. These people, I admire. I am making my self sound crazy but in all seriousness, sometimes I wish I didn't worry so much, that I didn't consider the consequences of each action prior to deciding, but then I'd be changing the essence of who i am. Getting a bit deep now, I apologise! 


Not planning has its benefits, you're not disappointed when you don't achieve everything you wanted to, it leaves time to 'slot in' other activities, and you are not restricted. Believe it or not, I do 'wing it' sometimes, while giving presentations for example, this stems from years of debating at school, I started in first year by relying on notes, numerous senior university competitions later, I can stand in front of however many people, and speak about something for 10 minutes based on a few words of notes. Don't get me wrong, I will know what I'm going to say more or less, I will have headings and take it from there. I started debating to help my confidence levels at school, I didn't win a single competition but I feel that it helped me learn to think on my feet and not know word for word how each moment of my life is going to unfold.